expressing negativity

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Tuesday, December 06, 2005

oh gosh...im finally bk frm cambodia

seriously..its awkward...i wanted to come hm..yet aft i've reached hm..i wanna go bk to cambodia..ahz...wad an irony..

i missed the orphans..i missed the times spent with the ocip pple...i missed IRC n BS..i missed the late nitex we had..i missed the star-filled sky in cambodia..i missed the carefree lifestyle tt we r used to for the past 12 days...i missed the games we've played tgt..i missed digging n fence-painting...i missed speed-shopping...i missed the food we ate there..i missed the common bunk we used to sleep in..i missed the insects (aka grasshoppers, crickets, etc)i missed the times we worked hard tgt..i missed the times we shared the joy n sadness tgt..i missed everything..everyone in ocip..(with the exception of one)

it feels weird sitting down in my room nw blogging...its as though the time n memory of cambodia juz ended here... i dowan it to end so abruptly...its like some part of me is missing...*sounds familiar*

the times the ocip team spent tgt is golden unforgettable n invaluable...nothing can replaced this complete memory...even the random talks we had were made fun by most pple..i feel i really cant live without them for a moment...THIS moment...

well...even tho ocip may sound so celestial... there will always be a fucked up person to ruin everything...

he's such a hypocrite...putting on such a serious facade everyday...like everyone owes u everything in the world..n pls u fucking bastard...do not come n insult my character...i noe i have my ego...but since u want to mention about crossing lines..U'VE CROSSED MY LINE!!! tts enuff manz! so narrow-minded of u to judge me liddat...scheming indeed u r...purposely have to make me feel guilty by penning my own thoughts on pen n paper...but for the sake of my future...i transformed into u...HYPOCRITE!

but since u like being a hypocrite so much..i shall become ur reflection...reflecting ur own behaviour...

one word of advice...i have my ego..dun come n mess with it

2:22 AM::i hate yOu::