expressing negativity

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

seriously. i hate those ppl hu nv listen. instructions r meant to be listened n carried out. tts y i hate them. its as though ur instructions to them has dissolved into their Alzhemic part of their brain. or its kena sucked into the black hole n treated as non-existent. wow. i admired these ppl. including myself sometimes.

wads a lock for? isnt it supposed to lock ppl out n keep ur privacy. key lehz? to either ensure ur security in case of emergency when u r locked in. some ppl loves to abuse the privilege of a key. excluding enz here of course. but it is obviously to obey instructions to abuse such privilege. fortunately. i have nt gone this far.

until one day. when my fuel level in my head is filled n OVERFLOWN. im gonna blow. simple. dun believe in my facade. cuz facades r nv real. trust me.

tata.

4:22 PM::i hate yOu::

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Monday, June 13, 2005

today is such a bloggable day. dunno y. but muz blog. like the way ive always do. DETAILEDLY. hahax!

this morning i manage to wake up up in the morning!!! wooo!!! broke my curse of sleeping n waking up late!! yeahz!!! ........................ anw....went out with my parents n relatives to eat pow sing(m i right?) chicken rice + miscellaneous @ serangoon garden. its such a feast. couldnt take so much food. esp juz aft i woke up n when im like nt hungry...oopz! played with tt little cute spongy-face niece i have! hahax! so cute! juz like me!! oopz...

left halfway disappointedly. tot can be lumpanged to at least some mrt station. dun think i need to say wad happened aft tt. hahax. wadeva. took a bus frm serangoon garden bus stop. v fast. my bus 73 came within a flash. hehex! took the bus @ 12.45pm to toa payoh. NOTE. im supposed to meet ivan n sl @ city hall @ 1.30pm. +++ i still have to buy tix for the 5.10pm show for mr n mrs smith @ cineleisure FIRST. THEN i go meet them. ~45min....wow! but wadeva. im always late. hahax! oopz! bus quite fast. reached there @ 1pm. missed train. waited ~5 mins. or 6. dunno y im toking such trivia stuff too. ignore if u have to. took to somerset. while waiting. sl tried to call me n vice versa. wow. sl's phone's amazing! even though he changed it. dunno if its my phone or his. it juz sux. called ivan to wake him up. i tot i need to. but he failed me. oopz! so i had to 'rush' a bit lor.

arrived @ somerset. this stupid woman came n approached me to buy a dunno wad thing. NO TIME. tts my excuse. ALL THE TIME. so irritating. for commission sake. NEXT. wont get cheated like poor jonny. hahax! walked away quickly. nv realised cine q far frm somerset mrt. walked until leg lemonised. took lift lor. simply lazy. oopz! bought tix real quickly. walked bk out of the cathay building. still contemplating to take mrt or take bus. scared take mrt kena haunted by the woman again. but scared take bus v slow. sighz. took mrt in the end. ivan ranted. hahax! oopz! avioded that bitch totally. heng. den ivan ranted @ me. cuz i too slow. wadeva. blame the train by then. i TRIED my best! hahax! :P

den met up with the 2 ppl @ city hall. den decided to go the macs @ bras basah instead of suntec. cuz too far frm mrt. oopz. den went up the escalator frm the mrt. BOOM! ANOTHER BITCH haunted us AGAIN! win lor. like i fated liddat. met TWICE. the commissioners again. wanted to go. but poor ivan. too kind le. cannot. muz teach him a bit of fang sheng shu, or 'protect urself' skill. hahax! practised a lotz in bishan last time le. muz teach him. esp now he studies in bishan. hahax! so we continued our journey towards macs toking about this matter. n then about the movie premonition. well. memories. good or bad? the latter would be good. hahax!

went upstairs of macs. bought our meals. den started mugging liaoz. wow. so hardworking. continued on my carbo. got a lotz of ???????????????????????????????????? in my head. too bad. hahax. gonna fail everything anw. halfway stomachache. went to shit. the door cannot close properly. muz use force one. den shitting in pubic toilets unwillingly reminds me of me clogging up the toilet bowl in vj. water flowed out. so paiseh. hahax! ran away frm crime scene. hahax!!! den went bk to study. kept toking lotsa crap while mugging. actually nt really mugging. half of time mugging. the other half toking crap. tok frm pri sch to sec sch to tv programmes. think i saw a superstar participant. eeekkz! reminds me of the gossip club's thingy!! hahax! 'wo3 shi4 ru2 fa1. xi3 xi3 zhe4 li3. xi3 xi3 na4 li3. wo3 yao4 ni3 xi3 xi3 zhe4 li3" HAHAAHAHAHZ!!!! oopz! moved on to lipids finally until sl commenced the mugging session over at an earlier stipulated time of 4.15pm.

went bk to take mrt to somerset. toked about some ppl in my classreached there @ 4.50pm. wow. movie starts @ 5.10pm n we went there 20 mins earlier. bo bianz lor. rot. rot until we went in. bought chips n drinks. woo. movie started on time. gd. no need waste. watched mr n mrs smith. movie quite long forgot to urine. but can bear with it anw. hahax. movie quite nice. up to my expectations. surprisingly i think this movie has the least dialogue. everything they said is so crisp n direct. luv it. unique way of communication. 9. den the plot. twist is 50% expected. so plot. 6. then toking about the action pac thingy. quite interesting. juz felt quite poor thing for that beautiful hse that is being blown down in the end. sickening. but luv it cuz nt my money anw. hahax. cool couple. nice. 8. hahax! copied frm the movie frm the way they rate. hehex.

aft movie walked ard first lor. went to heerens. bought a choker. cuz losted mine this other time during drama nitex. sobx sobx. nvm. got new one liaoz. contemplate for q long b4 buying. went in 77th street to shop ard. realised their clothes quite nice lehz. luv them. wanted to buy them. but. sighz. den wanted to go to tt place which i saw got fd court one. well. its a mirage to me. hahax. went to cuppage instead. saw mr jerry teo there!! hahax! shopping with his dear wife. but din see her. went toilet. damn. so went to buy my food first den want to purposely walk to their table n fake. but they gone liaoz!!! how dare he! muz scold him. hahax. so msged him. said hes at robinson. nahz. too lazy to go there. besides my food's getting cold cuz of him. den tok crap while eating until dear george called me. he panicked like mad. tot he got asthma n needed help. well. its only his handphone tt dropped on the floor while vibrating. wadeva lor. got warranty to send still dunno. need me to tell him. hahax. win lor. while i eating some more. sorrie george if u see this part. but its for u!!! hahax! so after eating. tempted sl to play para x2 @ dhoby. hahax!

we walked to dhoby. toked about desperate hsewives. den saw my mirage fd court. so empty. lucky nv go. hahax! anw. continued walking. ivan n sl toked about dota. dunno wads tt. den when we were waiting at the traffic light waiting to cross, sl wanted to cross cuz the other half of the road had its traffic light GREEN while nearer to us tt half is still RED. but i dunno wad possessed him n he CROSSED the road. he walked across one lane....den when he was about to cross the other lane. ivan screamed. ooo! the car came zooming towards him! he quickly responded. everyone tt saw gave a 'OOOO'. dunno whether its a 'aiyohz-so-careless' 'OOOO' or a 'aiyohz-nv-got-hit' 'OOOO'. but its scary enough. lucky got ivan screamed. or else i would see sl dead. or perhaps a cat dead by the road. or the cat with 1 lesser life. oopz! too far. den sl started panicking. dunno wad happened to him. like possessed or something. hahax. actually honestly. i wanted to cross with him. scary. like our sub-conscious r working so well. almost got us killed. hahax. but im numb. had so much similar experiences. like im fated to die of car accident. haahx!

so proceeded to dbs atm for dear sl to draw money. u noe wad. he's a piece of work. he took so long to draw money. really wanted to slap him. ivan n i were like lingering outside the bank like we r going to rob the bank. siaoz. draw $$ can take so long one mehz? crapz. went to play para aft 1 wk for me i think. @ the lousy para x2 machine arcade. so went to play DDR first instead. tried standard. legs officially broke le. hahax. sl lehz. lousy. oh. FYI: sl topped up $20 again for $20 free. win lor. left $30 for him. hahax. anw. played a while den this ah-ma came n tok to us. seems interested in us playing. actually. she's juz lonely. hahax. oopz. can tell. lucky i pulled ivan away frm her when he came. hahax. or else no need to play le. hahax. den we played until the arcade closed. wad a close manz. while sl was playing ivan's share. the whole arcade juz went in a blackout. hahax. sl almost failed tt stage. well. nw its neither a fail or a pass liaoz. hahax! sl tapped another. but wasted liddat. hahax. wad a close. wad a close. den we went hm aft tt lor. simple.

thx for hearing me ramble bout today. kina missed wad i used to do last time when im free. sianz. felt revived suddenly. dunno y. want to do lotsa things. well. we'll see.

while on the train with sl. he told me he's going some kind of obs camp. sighz. toking about camps. i think i gave up on them le. i noe camps r supposed to teach us skills tt we need to noe. i noe camps let us noe more ppl. i noe camps r inspiring for most. but lets face it. face reality. do we really apply the skills we acquire? do we really continue to contact with the ppl we've bonded once so strongly with? do we really feel as inspired as we were as we break frm camp n as time goes by? do camps really work? maybe. for a while. aft a while. its gone. like the leadership seminar ive been to. felt empty. like i've nv been to the camp b4. sianz. wasted time? i dunno. u tell me.

kkz. tired liaoz. cyaz!

tata!

11:38 PM::i hate yOu::

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

halo ppl once again...oh dear..m i gonna be like yk too? blogging everyday?? addiction?? maybe...

recently having a serious jet lag. i have no idea y, but i kept waking up in LATE aftnoon. note, its nt aftnoon, its LATE aftnoon. i cant sleep. insomnia is juz killing me. i tossed n turned in bed like crazy, yet sleep demons din wanna find me. sometimes i wonder y r they doing this to me. making me sleep in lectures yet making me feel like a coffee addict when night falls...i seriously wonder. maybe its cuz of the hols tts causing me to sleep late cuz it has been a practice for me to sleep late at nitex during hols. but this hols. totally diff. feel diff. totally.

tokin about this hols, its killing everyone...i noe..

one is getting seriously split into different personality due to the ultimate boredom...

one is trying to find time to fit study time n leisure time together...

one is juz trying to study their way out of the hols...

while i juz subtlely pass time..killing each fraction of a sec...meaninglessly...

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y cant we have our hols like b4? y cant we love hols like we used to? its one of last few chances of having long breaks b4 we start to slog our way to earn every cent thruout the year. y cant we juz have a total break-off frm sch work n have our fun time? this is juz killing all of us...killing me...softly...

wad r hols to us now? to complete unfinished tutorials? or for us to study real hard for mid yrs? or to juz spend our time doing wad we like to do? well...i think the third option is clearly starting to be invalid for us...y cant we make it valid? its a holiday for goodness sake!!

well...this is the 1st ever time im having to study during my hols. well, i basically cant cope this stress. to balance my work n fun well. i juz luv to play hard. but this isnt. sadly. i want my life bk. but life's always been so bitchy towards us..wad can we say..

oh well..im starting to lose myself like my fren..better get it bk now..

well...as for me..i think i will stick to wad i used to do..take one step at a time...

tata!

11:39 PM::i hate yOu::

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hey ppl! 1 wk liaoz...yet mysteriously i had nothing much to blog....lets see

sun..5/6...went out to mug with ivan n sl...oopz...then went to play till 11pm...well...same sequence of life...sianz....

mon...6/6...rotted at hm...

tues...7/6...went for pw meeting in the morning...den went to have lunch with some s11-mates at delifrance...tok crap den went hm to sleep...continuation of decomposition...

wed...8/6...rotted at hm...again....no mood to go shopping...yet had a nice meal at cafe cartel...i want tt plate again...hehex...

thurs...9/6..went out with s gang (finally theres activity!!!)..met up with pig at tp 1st..den yeek came...started guessing yx wear wat colour when he comes..n no one was correct..hahax..den played a money prank on jer...as usual..he cant take it...sighz..y he always blame himself...izzit healthy? sighz...meeting started so sour..(sucky jun hols)...sianz..den angie came n we wenta watch premonition...i could almost doze...unscary...unfunny...nothing...tts all..only the last part tt MADE everyone GIGGLE a LITTLE... how ridiculous...oopz!! worst of all..i slept so soundly tt nite even though i always got reminiscence of the movie regardless of how scary it is...well...this movie has definitely failed my expectations like TOTALLY!!! lucky jonny nv come...gd intuition there...den went to eat at mccafe...i like that opera diva cake only...i wonder y they give sucha nm when its only CHOCOLATE CREAM CAKE....well...maybe its only for upper class ppl...none of my business here..oopz! den as usual...angie fetched us hm...hehex...anecdote of the day...yeek screamed when he enters the theatre real sharply n loudly! hahax! totally luv it!!

fri...10/6...went to mug again with ivan @ suntec...only finish enz in 1.5h...siaoz liaoz...dunno how to study other chapts n other subjs!!! die...nvm...juz try n pass mids can liaoz...sure got moderation...or else mrs chan will juz hav to prepare a real hard pair of boots to kick each n every1 of us outta vj...hahax! oopz! den went to eat n went to walk ard my old hse...hehex...so crappy...went up there somemore...the door is still untouched...guessed they luv the door tt might cause them to get stuck at ANYTIME....oopz! den went hm...sianz...until now...zzz....oopz!

well...look at how pathetic my life is. basically is juz computer n computer for me everyday. im sucha addict to computer cuz i juz cant stand a computer sitting down there all alone...staring at me so innocently...:( hahax...so crappy..this jun hols seriously sucked my world...like a black hole..

pw...worse....i think its the worse A level subj ever...i tot sec sch pw was the worst nitemare liaoz...now ive seen worse...great...juz great...in my opinion..pw is supposed to be an EXTRA ACTIVITY in sch..n they shld give students more room to explore..nt setting stupid assessment of everything we r supposed to do n hand in b4 a deadline tt is nv distant..n seriously i think its emphasis is placed wrongly...its nt fair to judge on PI rather than GPP...we spent hrs n hrs on GPP...yet many still get rejected...its nt fair for them lahz...n they juz wasted their time doing something tt isnt important..wow...i really question tt..n to make things worse..the ppl hu supervise us..guide us is as professional as we think....im nt saying tt the teachers r bad..neither i m saying they r gd...but wadeva it is..i nv tot it was their fault..they r pathetically burdened with so many academic n non-academic stuff..n this big pw thingy juz came n made their load even harder to bear...no wonder they cannot supervise us with the kinda standard we expect...basically..pw is supposed to let us students explore for gdness gracious.. nt to make us a concrete path in the jungle n lead us out of it..we r supposed to find out wad we did correctly n wrongly..wad we did sensibly n wad we did nt...tts how we learn...i believe...nt thru guidelines..pw is abstract..yet its made so technical..no wonder we had the same sleeping effect when pw briefing is on.. to sum up everything...i think pw needs to be revised...

sorrie for those ppl hu r nt involved or hv been thru this...we seriously r suffering..i believe those hu've been thru understands...its juz butting into our lives...i juz cant take it anymore...sianz diaoz...

hey ppl...if u r reading captions of my pics..erm..pls read frm the bottom-most pic of the pg....then the sequence is correct..hahax! okie! gtg..do tag!!

tata!

2:07 AM::i hate yOu::

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

oh well...guess the heroin wasnt sent in time...poor thing

2:36 AM::i hate yOu::

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oh...something i forgot to add frm tt kiasu pic...they leave their parents with the ultimate shame...sighz...

2:31 AM::i hate yOu::

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if i din tell u..u would have assume this pic was taken in haw pa villa

2:31 AM::i hate yOu::

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hmm...this taste like lemon...hahx...eh..the CHILLI CRAB finish liaoz ahz...have ur wash ur hands?

2:30 AM::i hate yOu::

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this is a typical kiasu scenario in restauants where kiasu ppl wans to tabao everything left hm...but it has worsen to kids telling their parents...nt the other way round anymore...

2:29 AM::i hate yOu::

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