expressing negativity

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

2 wks aft i had my fill of mid yrs, i came to some sort of enlightenment

i feel tt all of us in this world r like guinea pigs. we r experiments of others hu were once a guinea pig too. becuz all of us had to go thru torturous stuff in our life - TEST.

frm the first cells tt created us to the period of cremation, we have been under all sorts of test. a typical children-exam test. love test during teenage yrs. interviews r undoubtedly a test of ur personality n suitability. the test for parents to take care of children. or even under the tests of the rules of one's religion, on whether we could abide by them. im sick of it. seriously

how i got my responses? well. thx to the performance of ikan bilis by the tsd students of 2004. hehex. sounds quite funny though. in their piece. I THINK it juz simply says tt humans r expts of others in the future. n they tried different stimuli on the expts to get their responses.

well. in relation to tt. i think now. we students r the humans under expts. n the teachers r the "scientists" observing us. i mean in test they demand certain response from certain qns. if nt, it is deemed wrong. or so called the anomalous response. on the frnt pg of exam papers (memorably the gp paper), it clearly stated tt u can hand in a blank sheet of paper. tada. tts ur response to tt qn. its anomalous btw.

according to our responses. we r graded. juz like how we tabulate results in our SPA assessment. we r noted of our trend. whether we r the stupider( bad in response) of cleverer(better in response) students. when we proceed to join the society. we r inevitably ranked too. there comes the big MERITOCRACY. the grades tt we achieved r correspondingly sorted into our different occupations. differently-ranked occupations. this is so because " we r supposed to maximise our potential to serve the society". y r we sorted? bk to the responses my dear.

r we machines? or robots? sorted out to cater to different needs. n as we grow older. demand for us decrease. we r devalued in some sense. n as we take our last breaths, we r no longer useful to the society. n new batches of differently-graded-in-terms-0f-their-response people r here to take our places as we fade away.

wow..where has the old simple caveman died to? has it lost it simplicity or his domesticity? dun we have dreams? desires? or even a wish? where has the 'true' gone to? r our hearts like 'the thing' in fantastic 4? i dun think so? so long as i see a glimpse of light. i dun think it will even flicker. i think all these rubbish systems r driving me nuts.

so whats the use of owning a strong nation? competition among nations isnt gonna end anytime soon. its juz the beginning my dear ones. wadeva they r comparing, the basis is on the individuals tt make up the nation. n its bk to the responses my dear. so wads our ideal nation? i dun think i see it. neither will the future generations. at most wad we r working against is the sun's future explosion followed by the disapperance of the Milky Way.

bk to the tests. i think its gr8t to exterminate this lifetime project n start anew. buts its plainly impossible. go tell a person tt. i bet he will laugh his head off. literally. so long as we set foot on this piece of land. we r doomed with this fate

unbelievable

okie..i crapped... if u dun understand...nvm...juz tag n give comments...

im going nuts...thx!

tata!

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