expressing negativity

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

halo ppl once again...oh dear..m i gonna be like yk too? blogging everyday?? addiction?? maybe...

recently having a serious jet lag. i have no idea y, but i kept waking up in LATE aftnoon. note, its nt aftnoon, its LATE aftnoon. i cant sleep. insomnia is juz killing me. i tossed n turned in bed like crazy, yet sleep demons din wanna find me. sometimes i wonder y r they doing this to me. making me sleep in lectures yet making me feel like a coffee addict when night falls...i seriously wonder. maybe its cuz of the hols tts causing me to sleep late cuz it has been a practice for me to sleep late at nitex during hols. but this hols. totally diff. feel diff. totally.

tokin about this hols, its killing everyone...i noe..

one is getting seriously split into different personality due to the ultimate boredom...

one is trying to find time to fit study time n leisure time together...

one is juz trying to study their way out of the hols...

while i juz subtlely pass time..killing each fraction of a sec...meaninglessly...

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y cant we have our hols like b4? y cant we love hols like we used to? its one of last few chances of having long breaks b4 we start to slog our way to earn every cent thruout the year. y cant we juz have a total break-off frm sch work n have our fun time? this is juz killing all of us...killing me...softly...

wad r hols to us now? to complete unfinished tutorials? or for us to study real hard for mid yrs? or to juz spend our time doing wad we like to do? well...i think the third option is clearly starting to be invalid for us...y cant we make it valid? its a holiday for goodness sake!!

well...this is the 1st ever time im having to study during my hols. well, i basically cant cope this stress. to balance my work n fun well. i juz luv to play hard. but this isnt. sadly. i want my life bk. but life's always been so bitchy towards us..wad can we say..

oh well..im starting to lose myself like my fren..better get it bk now..

well...as for me..i think i will stick to wad i used to do..take one step at a time...

tata!

11:39 PM::i hate yOu::